the ides of january

this is a diary without a lock. at my healthiest, mentally, i write routinely. i dropped that habit years ago and have found myself shouting what i ought to be writing down. so here we go. my new year's resolution is to remember that this outlet is available and to use it regularly. i have too much to say at the moment; nothing is an emergency and i don't want to pick a fight internally in order to write so i'll leave it at this for now. 2017 will finally be the year i make choices keeping the long run in mind rather than choosing instant gratification.